Sometimes there are moments when all of a sudden, my confidence is tested. I forget what makes me unique and sets myself apart from the crowd.
I think before my next challenge I need to do some rediscovering again. All relationships take work and consistency, including the relationship with myself. I recognize that the only way to eliminate this insecurity is to take time to renew some vows or commitments to myself. I know that I have an addictive personality, meaning it’s easy that I hyper-fixate on one thing and forget the maintenance needed on the rest of my balance wheel.
This. THIS. IS THE RUT that’s been holding me back for 2018. This. THIS is why I feel lost all of a sudden. It’s not because 2017 was so much better and I’m nervous how to make 2018 match the same level of excitement (well maybe), but i realize it’s because i forgot who i was again. The past 3 months I’ve forgot to make that morning run. I forgot to go to yoga on tuesdays. I even forgot to schedule myself a lunch. I forgot to read that chapter before bed. I forgot myself. It’s time for self care.
*get ready for the pep talk, ya’ll*
Yes pat yourself on the back on how much you have grown in just one year. Be proud of yourself. Accept the compliment. Accept the love and support you so deserve. You work your ass off to be able to live on your terms, and I feel it’s time that We acknowledge that. To shine the light on all the ups and downs you have worked though, all the painful moments You thought you couldn’t live through. YOU GOT THROUGH IT EVERY TIME.
Think about it and be completely honest with yourself. Close your eyes and ask yourself “what is your dream life” there are no limits on this fantasy. Absolutely none. Build the life you don’t need a vacation from. If you don’t have a clear idea of what you want, Jump on the first thing that you were able to picture. Do that-Make that happen. And then go onto the next thing, and the next thing, and the next thing. Until it’s this beautiful picture that you’ve envisioned through your spirit.
There will be more stops and painful experiences coming your way, but that’s life. The way that you cope with every situation is in your control, see these moments as opportunities to learn and grow. The way you handle and react to it, will set you apart from that adversity.
Remember how much you’ve gone through. You don’t need anyone’s validation and no one else’s permission but yourself to go after the life you so deserve.
If people shit on your ambitions there’s a very high chance that it’s because someone shit on theirs and they unfortunately chose to believe that shithead. Stay afloat but level headed. Small minds live small lives. Remember to only yourself with like minded ambitious individuals.